I would like to thanks all 378 unique viewers of my last blog. It’s only your
responses and messages through all communication modes which make me motivated
to write another one.
The speed of my blog is just like the journey of my life. It
always blows over. Yes, I could not able to make my name in the final list of
entrepreneurship program. It went past 4 months, to be more precise 3 months 28
days and 9 hours and I could not able to forget that moment. I was at that time
sitting in the chair with my wide open eyes, open mouth, sitting at the edge of
the chair, waiting and staring hard to that idiot person who was smiling and
announcing the names of the finalist and finally he didn’t call my name. WTF.
The experience of that event is inexpressible for me. Suddenly I realized I
look like a fool and I quickly changed my gesture and expression. I and others
started meeting with one another at the end of the program. I smiled with glued
lips and shake hands with many people and fallaciously to one of the security
official who was standing near one of the exit gate. He started laughing, I
smiled with embarrassment and few others who were standing beside me smiled
too. This is the time when I realized how your thoughts and intentions changed youraction. That’s exactly what
happened with me. I was feeling desolated and disappointed which brings
incoherent thinking and my intention was to skip away from there and unguent
the lesion of my heart which leads to absurd action. Few leaders came up to the
stage and convince those who are not selected, like me, that it is just a
starting of your journey. Move on. I think true leaders inspire us to be bigger
and do things we are afraid of doing. Those who selected were very happy and
some of them can’t control their happiness. They were really very happy.
Suddenly my eyes stuck to a guy. Damn, he is selected. How it is possible? He
is B.A. in history and completed some stupid correspondence course on
computers. I asked to one to whom he was talking. Is he selected? Yes. He
replied. His idea is unique and giving a great platform to android app
developers. I met with him in previous events of the same program. He is good but
got selected in final is quite emergent for me. Then I saw 2 others who were
selected too and that was completely against my expectation. No, it’s not
jealousy or any complex. These words have no place in my dictionary. I had few
conversation with those three previously. I scored higher in the pitching round
against them. I scored higher in public speaking round too. I went back home
with disappointment. After few days, I checked the official website. I notice
the winner names list and their business plan. I looked at them. All plans are
good, some are excellent but mine was not bad too. On observing those ideas, I
found all ideas are solving bigger problems than what my idea is solving. Those
persons whom I assuming ‘not so smart person’ are giving better solutions to
make the life easy for customers in their niche skills. The same day I learned
the second lesson through the same event that smartness and intelligence is not
about pitching in front of investors, it is not about speaking in public. Intelligence is all about ability to solve
problems. This spontaneous observation of mine reminded me of my senior
project manager where I was previously working in Kolkata. He said, everyone
have money problem. You have, I have. If you want to make yourself rich, solve
problems. Identifying a problem and creates the opportunity for creating a
solution. He was right.
I have decided to move on in my life with holding my dreams.
This was the event through which I realized the exact meaning of sadness,
discouragement and irritation but fortunately so early I realized the
importance of control in my life which is the basic demand of doing something
different and bigger. Believe me It’s not easy, man. It requires discipline,
focus and stubbornness. Yes, stubbornness.It’s not comes in a day or in a month at least not for me. It needs
time. It needs instinct. My one of the inner desire is to do something in
education system of our country whereschools taught students about the importance of control in their
lives.This is one of the principal reason why so many people are feeling
insecure today.We don’t know how to control our lives.This is the big problem
of our society but solution comes with smart, creative and mature thinking.
Well, I am still moving and finding opportunity and from
last 3 months 28 days 9 hours and now 20 minutes I have been respecting the
value of time. I have been learning each day. I have been learning life. I have
been learning market. I have been learning finance. I have been learning
business. I have been learning technology. I have been learning India and the
world. I have been learning values and I have been learning to live my life to
the fullest. The more I learn the more I
realized how much I don’tknowand
it’s a strange feeling. Mmm.. mixed emotions. This opportunity failure gives me
another eye to see those barricades which are not allowing me to move forward.
Few past opportunity failure in the first quarter of my life give me strong
feeling that I was behind the learning curve. I saw people of my age farther
ahead in their life simply because they had taken their education and professional
careers seriously. This failure was myrealization that I needed to become a
student, to study like I never before.
confidence.I need more confidence than
today. A wise investor said to me:
Every Self confident
person is not an entrepreneur but every entrepreneur is a self confident
There are two school of thoughts. One said you learn the
most when you fail and other said you learn the most when you succeed. Many
support the first school, some support the second school. One thing is for sure, either way you will learn.
By taking view of my speed of writing the personal blog, I
hope next time when I would write, I will express the learning through my
success and not failure.